As the sense of spaciousness grows and we delve more deeply into the work of the heart we are asked to meet more intense energies than we are accustomed to. Old pain from suppressed parts of the psyche start seeping out of our bodies in what is often referred to as a purging or cleansing.
It may surface as physical pain or as is very often the case, as mental/emotional pain. Our sense of specialness gets chipped away at. Some triggering happens and in no time we feel consumed in a heavy energy that fills up the whole screen of our consciousness. It is helpful to remember that a big chunk of old ego pain energy is coming through.....coming OUT of our system. It is necessary....it is OK...it is the way of it. It feels so personal but there's nothing personal about it. It is just collective pain energy. It wraps itself around that personal self with a suffocating fierceness and there is only despair and hopelessness about what a terrible person you are. It will always revolve around the small me - that's the way it gets its grip. That's the way the pain is felt.
See if you can rise above the awful thinking and relate directly to the pain in a way that would be natural for you with a small hurting child....." I know you need to come. I know it's so hard for you. I know you've been trapped in here forever and I wish I could welcome you a little more. I love you. I'm sorry. Thank you for coming at last."
Energy is just like a person, it knows when it is being resisted, it knows when it is being received. The more you can hold the consciousness of welcoming and understanding the easier it can be for it to move through. Waves of tears may come and go. They are freeing you and they have their own heart-softening beauty.
Do whatever you can to be gentle and to hold the bigger picture that it is your freedom that's happening. And this work you are doing has a far greater impact than you can know of in the moment. It is serving your family, your ancestors and coming generations.
In time as these old energies get broken up their gravitational force is diminished, the lighter it all feels and there is a natural and greater ability then to just dismiss the mind as illusion and imagination. And what incredible grace this is.
Beautiful post Dear Mags ~ It is timely for me as I seem to be experiencing this today... Deep release of old fears and anxieties. What you write gives me encouragement to just sit with it and trust the process of release and softening...
With gratitude and love... Christine
Posted by: Christine | 06/27/2011 at 12:29 PM
PS - Love the Heart Cloud! :)
Posted by: Christine | 06/27/2011 at 12:30 PM
Dearest Mags... _(♥)_
xoxo
Posted by: Leslie | 06/27/2011 at 01:54 PM
Christine, yes, we can so trust all of what's appearing. How beautiful, this process of softening.
Thank you for writing....
Much love, Mags
Posted by: Mags | 07/01/2011 at 10:54 AM
Dearest Leslie......thank you, as always...
Mags
Posted by: Mags | 07/01/2011 at 10:55 AM