There are spells and phases where it is divine guidance to take our sights off the ultimate goal of Self-realization and just to focus on loving our own being. To let it know how deeply loved it is. And in this the ego can actually let go.
You're allowing Love to come in and you're allowing it to come in to the place where it is most needed. Your whole world arose out of rejection of self - arose to take you out of the pain of rejection of self for the heinous crime of separation, that never happened at all.
And you find that it is so much larger than love for the child-mind, the personal being - it is a love that starts to flow from a limitless heart and it extends its gentleness to all it sees and touches and handles and holds. To all who cross its now loving, inclusive mind. It is Beauty Itself.
It is everything you've ever longed for but thought it couldn't be inside 'plain, old' you.
And even as the triggers to the personal self continue, it is now Mother who holds her child, the neglected, the abused, the unloved one - all the children of the Great Heart that greets them at the door of Heaven and calls them in.
She is Anandamayi Ma and every Ma. She is Amma, Our Lady, Quan Yin, the Ganga, every name for Mother she is. Her essence is Love that flows and steadfast Presence that stays.
She is the Divine She. And sweet child of Her Divine Heart, she is You. She holds you and waits for you until you are worn down enough that you can let Her in and know Her as You.
Mother and child. Mother and child. Over and over again, Mother holding.....stroking child until the beautiful, ultimate revelation that there is no child.
Only, Ever Mother.