The Vibrant Heart

The Divine Archer

Triggers are a vital part of the freeing process. They push up against what is repressed, pulling and plucking energy out of seclusion and confinement. They gradually and systematically thin out the force of conditioning and the magnetic pull into the small self, until the web of ego is diffused enough to be actually seen as illusion.

Triggered energy coming loose can feel jumbled and chaotic. Sometimes you don't even know what the precise hurt is, you just know you feel awful.

Writing down or stating the things that upset you can be helpful in the process of digestion and integration. Being specific and totally childish. If you can, when you can, write them in the form of a thank you.

There is just something about saying ' thank you ' for what is challenging that helps open the energy of it, release the tears of hurt and all at the same time, a higher seeing is happening around how exactly this is serving you.

It can lift you out of victim mentality and into the recognition that it is only the small me that is being deconstructed with the mind-blowing precision of the divine archer.

And You, oh blessed You, are as intact and as invulnerable as before, during and after any dream of individuality came into appearance.

Ancestral Energies

" The personal self is no more than the point person of all your ancestral energies" Adyashanti

Your mother, your father, your grandparents all live in your body. What lay buried in their bodies for lifetimes was taken in by yours through some form of energetic osmosis.

How incredibly personal it all feels. How incredibly impersonal it truly is. Just shrouds of energy traveling down through the halls of time.

Can we open to what surfaces in our system, recognizing its long history, its long search to be free.

Bring your ancestors home. Give the mind back to God where it belongs. Let it all come to its final resting place.

The End Of The Personal Will

At certain moments you realize you want only what God wants for you. Any other kind of wanting or self-serving becomes too painful to bear.

These moments repeat themselves. We don't just surrender an issue and that's the end of it. The little, separate self reasserts itself many times over, we surrender many times over. Each time the weight and drive of the personal will is eased until eventually there is only the One Will.

Being Reclaimed By Love

Being Reclaimed By Love: A small deck of cards with my words, put together beautifully and published by Rashani Réa. Here are some examples:

"Find a hand to hold. Be vulnerable. Shining through our soft vulnerability is the enormous backbone of the Self."

"Your own Heart is waiting for you when you're done scouring the landscape of illusion for the substance and love it can never give you."

"Frozen pain energy is like a baby. As a mother does not address her fussing baby with non-dual language, neither do we in the meeting with ourselves."

"Stand firm, hold steady as awareness and see how every single wave of bodily sensation is just transient energy passing through."

These are available for purchase at Rashani's website.

http://www.rashani.com/dharma-gaia-cards/Small_Card_Decks_by_Rashani/SC47-Being_Reclaimed_by_Love.html

With much love,

Pema

"Pema's words are spicy salve, waking up and soothing all at once" ~ KS

The Energy Of Aversion

All the distaste, aversion, dislike I feel towards another is towards my own self. The distaste is in me, with me, only me.

The other is not really there, just a convenient object in consciousness for which to project the ego's self-hatred onto because it is unbearable to feel the brunt of that in its entirety.

It has been unconscious but through the gift of this other it is no longer hidden and buried.

Once we get over the initial blaming and story we sit with the sensations of aversion remembering it is never about the other, recognizing this energy of aversion is ripe and ready and wanting to come home. And gratefully, this is what is happening in the holding of it ....... it is coming home.

Cleaning Up Our Act

I remember years back reading about Byron Katie's journey and how at one point she started feeling the presence of this voluptuous old lady in a paisley dress with a bun in her hair. This
lady felt like pure love to her and whenever Katie was out of integrity as in telling a lie, exaggerating a story for effect, the lady would recede and Katie could no longer feel the love. Desperate to have her back, Katie would do whatever had to be done to make amends, calling people to apologize and to tell the truth. And she would again feel the love of her lady and all would be well.

I remember longing to have a little old lady or some such loving figure show up in my awareness and help me clean up my act.

But the truth is that love has not forgotten any of us and we have a built-in mechanism for knowing when we are out of integrity. As mature seekers we begin to become acutely aware of when we're off. We know when we're being dishonest in subtle ways, we know when we're doing a little self-promotion, we know when we're holding back information that might make someone else look good. Oh, we know a lot of things. And if we don't and our commitment to truth is in place, the feedback or reflection of our offness from the external will appear in no short measure.

So the invitation is to clean up our act. Be honest and direct. Tell the truth. Make those calls when necessary and say you're sorry. And don't hold back on helping others to shine when it feels appropriate.

And when we can't, can we have the utmost patience and understanding for the one who feels fearful. In God's timing we all come to see we could never lose anything of value by being true. We only gain our whole life back.

The Force Of Pain

Let every ache of mistaken identity surface and be felt until the force of pain itself would burn away this false collusion with an illusionary character.

And finally you come to see that pain has done its work and true seeing fills the space where once such pain arose.

And now you stand again where you have always stood, free of trappings and imaginings, free to be and free to see. And all are known to be as close to you, as one with you as the very one you thought you were.

The Holding

Let what is full hold what feels lack. Let what needs no attention hold what longs for it.

Over and over again we hold the lost parts and energies as they emerge slowly and gradually out of the unconscious dark, until their innocence and lovedness is known through and through and the Holding Itself becomes our savored experience.

Let Yourself Be Deeply Touched

Let yourself be deeply touched when goodness shines on the places that have not known it before.

Love comes to you in an unexpected way, perhaps from an unexpected source and as It comes to you, something rushes to meet it from inside. It is energy that has been cordoned off, shut down in your system and it pours forth now in tears and gratitude and a recognition of what has been missing.

Let this have its full life, let all the energy of it be released. Healing is happening in the sweetest, most pain free way there is, leaving your heart more open to receive and give the goodness of Love.

There Is Nobody Out There

Some years back I was graced with the stark seeing that there is nobody out there. This appeared in the midst of a deep shamanic journey. I was imagining reporting something to a friend and then, suddenly, with an "Oh my God", she disappeared and it was seen clearly that she didn't exist. The mind's perception of her just did not exist.

It was hard to look at, the mind wanted to curl back into itself and not look at the truth. That it is speaking to itself and only itself all the time. That every thought, judgement, feeling we have that seems to be about another originates in us and is only about US.

Although engraved somewhat in my system, this seeing faded and it is only now, after years of meeting projections onto others that this truth is being rekindled.

If it serves you remind yourself regularly that there is nobody out there. Notice how there is a pulling back in from the external, a natural self-containment that happens, an opening back into the formlessness of your true nature.

Opening back into Absolute Reality, this formless, perceptionless Seat of peace, stillness, radiance.

The Offering Of Stuckness

When stuckness in some area of life prevails it is the highest
offering of all. It is what keeps inviting you to step fully outside
the mind.

Body ailments, financial distress, unrealized desires,
addictions.....whatever it may be, be assured it is serving you
greatly. Left to our own devices in the mind, all things going
relatively well, what enticement is there to leave it. Continuing to
identify with it must become extremely disagreeable or no serious
stepping back, stepping out of it will materialize.

Stuckness is usually where you've circled for years, mapping out a
small parcel of mind where, despite the suffering, you get to hold on
to the familiarity of something you must resolve, a great problem,
something that unconsciously binds you and holds you in separation.

It is where the Beloved is kissing you most fervently with a "Come
dear heart, come Home to Me." Its supreme gift to you is the beginning
of the end of you.

It may not feel in your best interest but you must leave the
exhausting merry-go-round of fixing, of seeking resolution, of
betterment. You are not abandoning anything except the unreal.

Let yourself be airlifted out of stuckness, out of mind. You are not
the mess, not the body, not the face you see in the mirror every
morning and are so convinced is you.

You are a fountain of clarity inside that is still and yet bubbles
with goodness and delight and joy. Let us come Home. And let us stay Home.